Yesterday my world was rocked. Jolted. Tilted. Slammed. Wrecked.
My stepmother Sandi called with news that my father was in the hospital.
It seems he had not been feeling well over the holidays.
They finally decided to go to the emergency room on New Years Eve.
Blood was drawn. Tests were performed. Breaths were held.
The end result was an unimaginable horror: stage 4 liver cancer.
Exhale.
My father is battling Alzheimer's and his memory fails him constantly.
I called him yesterday while he was in the hospital.
Me, timidly: Hey Pop, how are you feeling?
Pop, urgently: I got a clean bill of health. I want to go home now.
Me, lying: Hang in there, maybe you'll go home tomorrow.
Pop, demanding: No, I want to go home now.
He began calling for Sandi. But she was out of the room.
My father has always been impatient & it's worse when Sandi is not near.
Pop, frustrated: I need to find Sandi for you. She'll tell you.
With that my poor confused father hung up the phone...
For which I was thankful as it was getting very tough to keep it together.
I spent the next couple of hours lost in tremendous sorrow. And tears.
I sought out the comfort of friends. Theu were gracious with their time.
So cancer is determined to revisit and terrorize my family again huh?
Well, fuck you cancer. Fuck you hard. Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you.
Exhale.
Sorry Chuck, I have been there when I lost my mother when she was just 61.
Changed my life forever
Posted by: Diane | January 03, 2012 at 02:04 PM
It's not easy to deal with this kind of sad situation in life. Our emotional world comes down, we tent to feel ourself defited by a big monster. Cancer is a very serious thing and to battle it the only big weapon we have is a possitive attitude and umbrakable faith, that even includes the person who suffers the illness. The natural state of our bodies is health and that state must continious rulling our mind and soul. I hope your father can recovers as soon as possible with the same force of a miracle. God bless you and bless to your hole family.
Posted by: Luis Yedra | January 03, 2012 at 01:52 PM